fml!

this whole entire thing is ruined because i deleted the picture for today without saving it to my computer or putting it on here. i'm done and never again will i do one of these again.
it was fun while it lasted.

i'm so much like you.

I went to Adam's today. It was fun and interesting. :D

what if i actually peed?

Lmao.

Adam came over today. It was hilarious. I had a good time. (:

Mr. Hinchman look alike, Billy Mays died today. :(

oh fuck me.

I love my mommie. :D


It's mine and Adam's three months today. (: Our original plans changed. And now we're going to the Stars and Stripes Festivial in Mt. Clemons. I'm excited! :D

it's the life i love,

And it's you I can't live without.


Went to Adam's today! That was hot! ;D Then later we went to the spree together. That was fun! I saw Ashley there too, and we talked for a little. I miss her. And I saw Amber! I miss her too! I had a good day, and I can't wait til tomorrow. (:

break the bottle! break it up!

Adam came over early today. That was hot! :D

I feel terrible because I broke a promise to Jessica. And she already hates promises. Ahh! :(

Went to see The Proposal with Lauren and Rachel today. It was really good! And then we went to Rachel's to swim. It was fun to catch up with them again.

Michael Jackson died today. :(

it isn't easy to show,

what I'm feeling inside, girl.

Went to Mcdonald's for lunch today with Josh. I guess it was alright. Rode my bike and met Adam at Franklin. Sat there for a while and then went to 711 to get a Slurpee. Then we sat in the shade and talked about life. It was cute. (:

YOSHI KART DS !

I went to Adam's again today. We watched Meet The Parents. It was alright. Then we kinda just sat around doing nothing. And then we played YOSHI Kart, instead of MARIO Kart. And that was fun! And then after was fun too. Now I'm about to eat some ice cream. (:

there's no running away from the things that bring you down.

I went to Adam's today. It was fun!

what's the price for flight?

It's Father's Day. So of course I did absolutely nothing since dad and I never do anything together. I took a nap. That was enjoyable. And I talked to Adam, which is also enjoyable. I'm bored out of my mind. Oh well.

give me the fucking gum!

Hahahaha.
I drove like a monster today. Badass.
Went out to eat at this pie place, and it was amazing.
Adam came over after, and that was wonderful. And soo cute. :)
Now I'm going to bed cause I don't feel too good. /:

lost in a world of fantasy,

Cleaned all day.
Rewarded myself by going to Lauren's with Jessica. It was fun!

i win!

I hung out with Adam today. (: We went to the mall. And we saw the cutest little midget best friends riding scooters together. Awh! We also saw Kevin squared. I miss Kevin. Then we went back to his house and had a pillow fight. And I lost. It was just good to be with him again. It seemed like everything was the way that it was supposed to be.

i'm a wreck without you.

Today was offically the worst day of my life. I realized that I'm not even close to as strong as I think I am. I've completely isolated myself from everyone, excluding Adam and Maria. I HAVE NO ONE. And if anything were to happen that they would be out of my life, I'd go crazy. And I'm glad I finally realize it. It's like I don't have to lie to myself anymore. It's like, I know who I am.

Hello World,

I'm Brianna.

I'm weak.

And I'm a wreck.

where you goin now?

Today was the most boring day of my life. I'm tired of sitting around doing nothing.

give me your hand, but realize i just wanna say goodbye.

Today is June 15th, and I KNOW with everything that I have that SOMETHING important happened on this day last year. I just can't think of what it is. I thought that it was a day that Josh and I hung out, and I looked really cute. But then I realized that I was wrong because the shirt that I wore I got on Ashley's birthday, and her birthday is the 17th. And then I thought that it was the last time that Audrey and I hung out, but I knew that was wrong because the last time her and I hung out was in July. It may be a possibility that I hung out with Ashley for the first time in a long time. Or it could have been the last day of school. I don't remember. But I know that something happened, and it's going to drive me crazy until I figure it out.

I went looking for a job today. I found nothing! There is one though, at Potbelly, and I applied for it, but I don't think I'll get it because on the application they asked if I was 18 or older. And I'm not. So I kinda think they want someone older than 16, which sucks. If I don't find a job, then there's really no point in getting my license because I will have no money to fill up the gas tank, therefore, I won't be able to drive.

Maria is leaving today and it will be the last time that her and I text for two months! She won't respond right now, but I hope that she decides to, because I need her. These next two months are gonna be hell. I can feel it. /:

I thought that I looked cute today, but then I couldn't take a decent picture. And I kinda look like a creeper. And I also don't think I can figure out any possible way to try to make myself look better, because everytime I try, I just feel like I'm uglier. I blame my face. I have such an odd shaped face, and it throws me off. And my hair is uncontrollable, and that kills my appearance too. Ugh, hopefully I can figure out something.

I'm overstressed, can't you tell? /:

i'm falling apart again,

I got my period today, and it's the happiest I've ever been for one.



I didn't do much of anything today. I didn't drive, because I didn't feel like it. I'm not really handling Maria leaving too well, but I'm keeping it in the back of my mind. I tried to get a tan today. It kind of worked. I've been listening to music nonstop and I'm discovering new meanings to songs. I bought new markers today! So of course I have to color. I still have to color something for Adam. He also told me that he reads the things that I write for him. And it made me feel good. He said I'm a good writer. The only reason I continue to write is for him. I read over my essay that I wrote for english a while back. And I realized that it's really well written. No wonder I got 100% on it. I'm saving it. And I found this thing I wrote for english about Maria. I love it. And I'm going to rewrite it for her, and make up a date for it and add it to my collection of favorite writings. I'm redoing that today, too. It's the 3rd day of summer, and I'm already bored. :(

i'll go wherever you will go.

I drove a little bit today. That was alright.

I went to Maria's today. It was fun. But I never really wanted to believe that she was actually leaving. But then when she started playing the songs from the CD I made her in 8th grade, all reality broke lose. When we said goodbye, I cried so hard. Two months is way too long. :(

Adam came over after dinner. That was cute, and fun. He was being dumb at some points, but it's okay. He made up for it. I really missed him.

first day of summer !

And of course I did absolutely nothing.

I drove to Grandma's today in my new car. :) That was fun. And probably the highlight of today.

I'm 100% alright! And I'm glad. No more peeing, no more worrying!

I've been mad at myself all day for not saying goodbye to Chase yesterday. I'm going to miss him so much.

And I also have been thinking that I wish I wasn't crying at the end of the day because Alfonso might have gave me my song.

Hmmm, I'm bored and I really don't want to hear anything else about this car.

last day of school !

I am sooo happy.

I passed my ASMM final with a 92 A-, leaving my final grade at a 97 A. And I passed my bio final with a 92 A- also, leaving my final grade at a 93 A-. I'm pretty happy with my finals this semester.

It was Rachel's birthday, so her, Lauren, Leslie and I hung out. I also got to meet her friend Bridgette. She's nice. I had fun. The only thing I didn't like was the food, and the fact that I had to pee so much. Oh well. I'm so glad I don't have to go to school tomorrow.

"I was thinking the other day. What purpose do I have in life, like why am i here? And honestly, you're the only thing I could come up with, like giving you advice and being there for you. I'm sure eventually the list will grow but as of now, that's all I have."
--And this is why you're my best friend.

"Well, Brianna Marie Beesmer. I love you so much that if the world were to end, I would want to spend my last minutes with you, no joke. I love you so much that everytime I think about you, I get this feeling inside me saying she is the one. I love you so much that when you look at me the way you do, it reminds me that you do love me. I love you so much that everytime our lips touch, I know that these are the last lips that I will kiss. You mean the absolute world to me and I will love you until the day I die."
--I love you so much that if I were to ever lose you, I would literally die.

obviously, i believe you.

I had a good day today!

My Spanish final was soo easy. I ended up passing it with a 92 A-, leaving my final grade at a 98 A. :) I'm very happy about that! The culture is what messed me up. And the English final kind of confused me, to be honest. But I did better than I thought! I got a 84 B, leaving my final grade at a 99 A. :) Yay. I'm doing good in school this half of the year.

After school was fun. I went to Adam's house with Rachel, Dylan, Tyler and Andrew. It was fun to hang out with Rachel again and actually talk to her some more about serious issues. It was a good day. :)

is that your vibrater?

Lmfao. :)

Finals were pretty alright today. 87 B+ on History, which leaves me with a 92 A- as a final grade. I'm glad, because that final was kind of hard. Algebra is my worst class. 75 C on it. It leaves me with a 88 B+ as a final grade. That's good, but I wanted all A's.

It was the last day I am ever going to have a class with Chase, and with Tyler. It was pretty upsetting for both of them. I'm gonna miss them. Tyler and I had a meaningful conversation today. And he pretty much let me know that everything was going to be okay.

Adam, Jessica and I went to Rite Aid after school today just to find out that it was closed! But I realized that all these things that are happening is a sign from God. Like, the only reason that the Rite Aid was closed was to prove that I don't need to take a test. And that I'm really not pregnant. I'm glad too, because I honestly have no idea what I would have done if I was.

I hung out with Jessica for the first time ever today. It was fun! I had a good time, and we're definatley going to do it again.

Tomorrow should be tons and tons and tons of fun! I'm excited that school is almost over. :)

look at me, i'm so far away.

Oh my God. I honestly do not think today could have been any worse. Everyone was just pissing me off in ways that I can't even explain. Pregnancy was definately the topic of the day. It was haunting me. Everyone was talking about it. Like, it was reminding me that it could be happening to me right now. I was worried and scared out of my mind all day. And the fact of others finding out about it was making me even more frustrated. I don't even know what to do.



Jessica was there for me, though. All day. And I am so glad because I have no idea what I would have done without her.



Adam and I talked about it, and about life, and what's going on. And after our conversation, I was like 99.9% (ha) better about the whole thing. He and I are meant to be, I can tell.



I'm scared for tomorrow, but I'm actually looking forward to it. Like Jessica said, not knowing is the hardest part.

i'm better than you at everything!

Yeah, right. :)

I went to Adam's today. :) It was fun. We probably laughed harder than we ever have when we were together. It was fun, and it was cute. :)

I don't wanna go back to school, /:

how does she do it?!

Hahahaha, (:

Hung out with Adam alll day today. :) We hung out at Tyler's. Then we went to Eastside Mario's with Tyler and Andrew. The stupid waiter gave himself a 8 dollar tip, asssssholeeeee. We went to Adam's after, and they played Rock Band while Adam and I hung out alone. (: Then Tyler had to leave, and Andrew, being the kind man that he is, left us home alone. (: We had a good time. So today was a good day. :D

"I love you more than anything, baby. :)"

--Tell me, how would you feel if you're riding home and you unexpectedly got a text like this?

---Absolutely amazing. <3

tyler is a gay alcoholic!

Yay for Lauren and I, for figuring out Tyler's true identity. (:

Yay for Adam, for making my day 100% better. Also Yay for Adam, for being so cute, and loving everything I said, and mostly for loving me.

Without Lauren and Adam, today would have been hell.

tyler hates...

Lauren ! :)

Haha, today wasn't really one of the best days of my life. It was like, the day female teachers attack I swear. Hruska, Bennett, BAKER BITCH!, and Wells ALLL pissed me off like no other. But I got over it.

Today's mom's birthday. (: We went out to eat at Chili's and I decided I hate food.

Went to Adam's after and oh my goodness, it was amazing. :)

well... bad!

Boring school day. Actually, it was kind of bad too. Oh well.

Hung out with Lauren after school and it was fun. :D And then Rachel came over and that was fun too. :)

I guess I had an alright day, but I'm kinda upset now... /:

"Well first off you are the love of my life and I couldn't be happier with any other person. You are such an amazing person and you complete me. You took my virginity and you are the person who I wanted the most to be my first. Brianna Marie Beesmer, you are the love of my life. Love you."

it doesn't matter who gets the best of who,

It never did and it never will.

Haley is officially out of my life and surprisingly, I'm okay with it.

Adam came over after school. :) It was fun.

That's pretty much it for the day.

hey, what do you say?

Omg, today was not a good day. I am still sick! Randomly now Mrs. Hruska decides to give us work, cool ! And Mrs. Bennett feels that the whole class should review when clearly, I know what I'm doing and I know Tyler and a few others do too! Oh yeah, I got 100% on the last algebra test! Better than Tyler! Yay! The new thing we learned in Spanish is so easy, but I'm for real tired of that class. I hate Mrs. Wells, enough said. Mr. O'brien fricken ruined my whole thing by being a jerk and a distraction and I hate him. Biology is always boring and it's beginning to annoy me. Ugh, it was just not my day. But Adam was being extremely cute today, which was good because he needed to be.

And because I'm too lazy and actually like how yesterday's post looks, I'll post the conversation Adam and on had on today even though it happened last night.

"I don't even know how you could forgive me."

"Honestly, I don't know either cause you really pissed me off. I've never been more mad at you than I am tonight. And you know what I can't stop thinking about? You. And how lucky I am to have someone who cares and actually loves me. And how miserable I'd be without you. And how I can't stand it when we fight, but I know that the only reason we do is because we love each other. And I know I worry too much and I know I need to stop, and I do. But then there's a random thought that pops into my head like, what if I were to lose you right now?And that's why I worry. Because I don't wanna lose you. And that's why I care because I feel that if I care enough, I won't lose you. And you wanna know why i'm forgiving you? Because I'm in love... With you."

"You just made me cry both good and bad. That was probably the best thing ever said to me. God damnit, Brianna. I fucking love you so much!"

"I did not mean to make you cry, but that is how i feel and you need to know that. It won't change, I promise you. I love you too, Adam, with all I have and more."

"I'm glad you did. I deserve to cry with you. I care about you so much and I need to show you. You mean the whole fucking world to me, no joke. I couldn't ask for anyone better than you. You complete me. You make me feel like someone gives a shit that I'm here. YOU love me! You know how there is one person out there for everyone and you have to find them? Well, shit, I found my match and her name is Brianna Marie Beesmer. I love you and everything about you and nothing or anyone will ever fucking change that. I swear to God if somethings takes us apart, I don't even know what I'd do. I love you."

cool for cats !

I tried to make myself look cute today for absolutely no reason at all. I didn't see anyone, and I didn't do much of anything because I'm sick! >:( I texted a lot though. Not with Adam, but with Jessica. It was enjoyable. I also got a tennis ball to my eye today, all my fault. It still kinda hurts a little. I got to spend some time with Josh today, and that was rather fun. I'm attempting to make myself look cute tomorrow, unless I'm still sick and feel like shit in the morning! Ughh ! I just want to get better, and see Adam. It's the last day of May! That means only 7 1/2 days left of school ! I can't wait until the summer. :)

"You're an acception, because you're my best friend. Not what most consider a bff to be. You're my best friend, even though I spend more time with others, and what not, you're a better friend than all of them."

love of my life. <3

I was with Adam pretty much all day today. It was cute and it was amazing. I have never been happier. I'm constantly smiling. I'm in love.

did he crush you?

To be completely honest, I do not like the person that you have turned out to be at all. You used to be so different. Granted, you always were a lying bitch, but now your actions are not understandable. You've completely turned your whole world around and from a used to be insider's point of view, you were much better the way you were before. Even though we're not so close, I still do care about you. And it would kill me inside to see anything happen to you. I feel as if this is my fault. After all, I kept you in line and I didn't let you get to crazy. I was like your straight jacket only in human form. And I don't think I ever realized it until now. You're completely crazy these days. And I can't help but to think if you and I were still best friends like we used to be, would you be doing this? Would you have changed so much or would you have stayed the same? I never thought I made such an impact on someone's life until I look at you from now an outsiders point of view. I just cannot believe how much has changed. I don't hold as much respect for you now as I did before, but I want you to know that I won't ever let anyone or anything hurt you.

I feel as if I have made a mistake. I honestly don't think I should have talked to you again. I think things are better when you're not around. It was so strange, just because it felt like it was you and me again. It seemed like no one else but you mattered to me. And I don't like that. I planned my world around you, and with you in it. And then one day, I didn't like it anymore. But now, I have planned my world around and with someone else. And as mean as it sounds, I don't want you to intrude in it. We had a chance, we've had more than one, but now things aren't going to work. I wanted you out, so I pushed you out. And you have always taught me that I can't always get what I want. And you know what? Neither can you. So no matter how hard you want back in, I hate to say it, but I won't let you in.

Today, when you and I talked for the first time in a really long time, I remembered some things. I remembered how we used to talk for hours and hours about nothing at all. You shared your personal thoughts with me, and I shared mine with you. You were there for me when I needed someone the most, just as I was to you. Honest, there was a point where I wanted you as much as you wanted me, but we both knew that it would never work out. I would get so frustrated at you to the point where I hated you. And you would probably get frustrated with me, too. But not once did we leave each other's sides. I really do not remember what happened, but I kind of wish it didn't. Now that I think about it, you were probably my best friend. I trusted you and I told you everything. But for some reason, everything changed. Talking every once in a while should be good for us, I think. But who knows if it's actually going to happen. I'd like for you to be a part of my life again, but I can already see some problems that would be caused. And I don't think either of us need that much drama in our lives. So I'm gonna let you slip away, like I have in the past. But never will I let you get too far.

DO NOT CALL HIM A HOMO!

Tyler saved my life today by letting me copy the math homework from him. Tyler made me laugh the hardest today when he yelled at me for calling Adam a homo. Believe it or not, I'm actually going to miss Tyler when he moves.

Today Adam and Tyler were making fun of me. They were talking about how hilarious it would be if I tried to rob a store. It was quite entertaining. :)

School was pretty okay today. Adam and I actually like talked at lunch. It was cute. :) And then he came over after school and that was cute too. :)

I'm in love. :)

smile miles !

Today was a super fantastic day!

Lauren was back!!! Yay!!! First hour was boring. Second hour pissed me off. Third hour was burning. Fourth hour was great! I was not too happy with the kid hitting on me though. Fifth hour was a lot of work but Adam made it better. Sixth hour was tons of fun, but when is it not? After school was a good time as well. :)

"Brianna, you are the love of my life and I could never ask for anyone better than you. I am going to love you to the day I die and nothing or no one will change that. I love you. :)"

---2 months today! :D

laying together...NAKED !

Oh Missy. (:
Let's just say, I wasn't excited to be back at school.


"You are so amazing and the way you look at me tells me that you love me and that you won't leave me. You have changed my world and I know that I will never leave you and you are the love of my life. :)"

you take away the rain, and leave me with a sunny day.

What a cute day! I went to Adam's house. We looked at his year books, and hockey books. We watched Borat too, dumbest movie ever. And then we basically just talked. We're so cute together. :)

you're gonna eat me!

Hung out with Maria today. (: It was tons of fun.

After I hung out with Adam and Tyler. And even though Tyler was there, it was cute. :)

I had a good day, and I'm glad we don't have school tomorrow.

if the sun refused to shine, i would still be loving you.

Good day. (: I was with Adam today. We tried something new and it didn't work too well. I think it was because we were worried and felt kind of uncomfortable though. It should be better next time. :D

Went out to eat with mom today at Chili's. And the Chicken Caesar Pita was the best thing everrr. (:

I cut my hair today! I'm not sure if I like it... /:

"He goes, 'Come to Kiabi and bring your cute friend. (: I'm going up there now.'

I ask, 'who?'

He says, 'From 6th hr. Idk how to spell her name.'

I say, 'Brianna. There's a few flaws with your idea though.

1. I'm not in Michigan.

2. Brianna has a boyfriend. (who she's gone pretty damn far with...)

3. She doesn't smoke.

4. I wouldn't go alone.

5. She doesn't think you're cute.'"

Lmfao, Jessica is my hero. :)

I haven't worried all day and I'm sooo glad. :D

i'm in love; i'm in deep.

Fuck school today. I mean, it was a good day and I had a good time in all my hours, basically. But today, it was all about Adam.

Firstly, it was absolutely spectacular that I got to whip him today. I haven't laughed that much in one day in a loooong time. He walked me home today, and we had an deep conversation. I'm worrying my ass off. I'm just afraid of losing him. He came over later, too. We went for a walk to the party store that I didn't know existed. Then we went to Hayes. We played hopscotch! We had conversations of the times when we got injured, and he definitely beat me. Hahaha. So then we went home and we watched tv and played Mario Kart for two minutes. Haha. Then we had the best ice cream in the world. Turns out, he had it before! Hah. But after the ice cream, is when everything went crazy. I started fricken crying. So then from there on out, we had a deep conversation. And it was probably the cutest thing ever. And then with 15 minutes left to spend together, we tried to do our thing, but we couldn't. So it turned into a conversation how we make each other laugh. And how we can joke around about his big head, and his fucked up ears, and my fucked up height and fucked up big toe, lmfao. And about the rest of our life and how we're always going to be together. We're dying right next to each other, and we're never ever going to be apart. <3

center of her own attention,

Today was a lot better than yesterday, for sure.

The history test was HARD! But I felt a lot better about it when Mrs. Hruska came into my 5th hour and said. "You did good on the test!" :) The dialouge pretty much killed my day. We had to do it TWICE because there were too many interruptions and Mrs. Massucci couldn't concentrate. It was hell, but we did it well, I think.

The baseball game should be fun! It's the last one! Whooo!

better start believin.

Today was officially the worst day of the school year.

Adam and I were fighting for dumb reasons. If I didn't have my period, and if he wasn't pmsing, then there would have been no problem, I'm convinced. He totally twisted my words around, which pissed me off even more. And then Mrs. Bennett only made it worse because she would not fucking help me! I fucking hate her. I am so glad I don't have her anymore after the 9th. And in the hall, Adam hugged me. And whenever someone hugs me, I cry. So I cried. And then Adam texted me and sent me a cute text that made me cry even more. But Jessi made me feel better so it's all good. And Courtney is always there to give me a good laugh too. Missy was back today and that was probably the best thing that could ever happen. Lunch was boring because Adam and I both didn't feel good. And then I completely flipped out on him for no reason. Only because he didn't tell me he had a game today. And then he hugged me again, and so of course I cried again. And then Missy made me feel better because we colored in english again. I kinda cheered up a little in fifth hour because our sub, Ms. Tzau, was asking seniors to give her a ride home. Hah. Lauren was kind of frustrating me, but it was okay. I got better in sixth hour simply because Mr. Hinchman is so dumb, that he can cheer you up if you just look at him. Haha. So then Adam and I worked things out and I'm going to his game later, and he's not mad at me, never was. He completely understands that it's only because of my period. And that's a good thing because it means he won't be mad at me pretty much ever because I usually only get extremely pissed off when I'm on my period. But I'm better now. And so is he. Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today. I really really don't want to be this big of a bitch today. But then I just remembered I have a history test tomorrow, so first hour is gonna suck. Ugh. FML. Oh well, things will get better.

We fight because we love each other.

"God. I am so sorry. I had no reason to say what I did and I need to be better to you than what I am. I am sorry for today and I can only hope that today gets better. I love you, Brianna. With all my heart."

i wanna be everything.

OH MY FUCKING GOD ! :D

I love you, Adam. :)

go fall in a hole!

Oh Missy... :)

Hah. I guess I had an okay day. I really don't know. I was energetic in my last three hours. I was pissed off in third hour and of course took it out on Adam. First and second hour were pretty much the same shit they usually are.

I'm excited for November, hahhh. Adam said once he gets his license he's gonna take me out more. :) What a cutie. :D

i promise i will never leave you.

*Adam, you promised.



Today is Josh's birthday! I bought him a Monster since I didn't hang out with him all day.



I went to Adam's today. It was amazing. Probably the best time. I'm in love.


"Because you are amazing and everything I could ever ask for and I love you."










R.I.P. Grandpa. You've been gone for 8 years now. I feel terrible because it doesn't even affect me anymore. Josh's birthday used to be so depressing, but now it just seems like a birthday. I never think of you, and I never cry over you. Maybe it's because I didn't know you too well. But you'd think I'd cry for dad's sake. But I don't. I really do miss you. I am kinda used to just Grandma coming to visit now though. I feel bad for not crying. But all pain heals with time.

i found myself still thinking of you.

Today I've been 16 for 100 days. So I have 265 days left to go. Aha.

Josh's birthday with the family today. It was pretty boring. But I guess it was good to see them all again.

Adam came over today. Omfg, it was the most amazing time. I did not want him to leave at all. Hopefully I'll see him tomorrow. :)

"Brianna, I have always been deeply in love with you."

you don't have to say anything at all.

Great dayy. (: We finished Forrest Gump today, and I loved it! Colleen and I actually got along which was a surprise! But I'm glad we did. :) Mrs. Bennett didn't take forever on the notes and homework today! And I'm happy! Spanish was easy, and I got 22/20 on the vocab test! (: English was movie and seeing Adam and help with math and talking to Missy. English wasn't annoying today! Lunch was wonderful with Courtney. (: She's pretty sweet. 5th hour was good. Sr. O'brien no está hoy! Estoy muy bien! But our sub sucked. Aha. Biology was simple and pointless. And I cannot wait for Applebee's later! :) Applebee's was fun! And so was Culver's. I wish they sang to Josh. And I wish he didn't get sick. :(

"I love you more than anything in the world. And that won't change cause I am going to love you forever. No matter what!"
-7 weeks today. (:

have you ever needed someone so bad?

The lives of others have more of an affect on me today than my own life does. And I honestly have no idea what to do.

I have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I get older, being as psychology isn't even what I want to do, or am even good at anymore. And it's extremely hard to get into journalism, not that I understand why. Dad suggests something with computers, but I really don't think I want to be a Mr. O'brien junior. Life is gonna suck when I grow old.

"The best month and a half I have ever had with a girl. It will be a life long relationship because you are the one. I can tell by the way I feel about you and care about you."

--cuteness. :)

i'd die of laughter watching her eat a peanut butter sandwich.

GREAT DAY ! WHOO !

NO HOMEWORK IN MRS. BENNETTS TODAY ! WHOO !

NO HOMEWORK AT ALL TODAY ! WHOOO !

REUNION WITH LAUREN, RACHEL AND HALEY TODAY ! WHOO !

I'VE MISSED THEM ! :)

AND ADAM IS ALSO OKAY ! WHOOO !

AND HE'S COMING OVER TOMORROW PROBABLY ! WHOOO !

I'M SO FRICKEN HYPER ! WHOOO !

WHOOO !

"You're mine forever and I love you more than anything. :)"

you keep saying it's you, and i'm praying it's true.

Shitty day at school. I hate Mrs. Bennett. I hate Mrs. Wells. I hate it when Jessica Kassis flirts with MY boyfriend.

After school, I did all the homework that's due from tomorrow until May, 21st. And I'm proud of myself.

After dinner, I hung out with Adam. And even though it was at a park, it was fucking amazing. :)

UUUH!

Lmfao, Jessi seriously made my day.

Today I learned that Lamb is my main competitor, and he's the only one who can beat me.

Good day. (: It was nice to see Adam again.