i'm falling apart again,

I got my period today, and it's the happiest I've ever been for one.



I didn't do much of anything today. I didn't drive, because I didn't feel like it. I'm not really handling Maria leaving too well, but I'm keeping it in the back of my mind. I tried to get a tan today. It kind of worked. I've been listening to music nonstop and I'm discovering new meanings to songs. I bought new markers today! So of course I have to color. I still have to color something for Adam. He also told me that he reads the things that I write for him. And it made me feel good. He said I'm a good writer. The only reason I continue to write is for him. I read over my essay that I wrote for english a while back. And I realized that it's really well written. No wonder I got 100% on it. I'm saving it. And I found this thing I wrote for english about Maria. I love it. And I'm going to rewrite it for her, and make up a date for it and add it to my collection of favorite writings. I'm redoing that today, too. It's the 3rd day of summer, and I'm already bored. :(