look at me, i'm so far away.

Oh my God. I honestly do not think today could have been any worse. Everyone was just pissing me off in ways that I can't even explain. Pregnancy was definately the topic of the day. It was haunting me. Everyone was talking about it. Like, it was reminding me that it could be happening to me right now. I was worried and scared out of my mind all day. And the fact of others finding out about it was making me even more frustrated. I don't even know what to do.



Jessica was there for me, though. All day. And I am so glad because I have no idea what I would have done without her.



Adam and I talked about it, and about life, and what's going on. And after our conversation, I was like 99.9% (ha) better about the whole thing. He and I are meant to be, I can tell.



I'm scared for tomorrow, but I'm actually looking forward to it. Like Jessica said, not knowing is the hardest part.