you seem happy. i am happy.

So I guess today was a good day, besides something completely stupid ruining it.

I woke up earlier than I was supposed to today, but in a good mood. For the first time in forever we had Pepsi in the house so I got to drink it this morning! I dislike how I can never drink the full can of the tiny cans.

Leslie and I kinda connected in a different level today. It kinda made me realize that she is going through what I went through a few months back. I tried to help her out, but I'm not sure if I told her the right advice. Her situation was a lot stickier than mine.

I was surprised to get a 38 on my composition. And I was happy. I wasn't too sure about having Amanda as a partner to begin with, but she grew on me. She's a sweet soul. (:

I wonder just how many times I have ever mentioned how much I hate english class. There is honestly no point to it. I think if Kayla or Missy weren't in that class, then I would go crazy. And I don't think I could get any crazier than I already am.

Uhm, I hate people who like to make fun of me for dating CJ. I really don't see anything wrong with him. There's no need to laugh and bring it up and laugh even more. Some people need to be punched.

I was so happy today because in 5th hour my writer's block decided to go away! I wrote a page and a half on my journey. And I'm still not done with it. I was so happy just to be writing again. I honestly forgot how good it felt to just let everything out. I think that when I'm done with this I'm going to be really happy with it's outcome. Or at least I hope so.

So the thing that ruined my day- the note from "Ashley". At first when I read it, I did not believe that she was actually with Josh. But then as I thought about it more and more, I started to kinda believe it. It didn't even piss me off that she was dating him, because I honestly have no feelings for him at all anymore. It just pissed me off for one, because she has been lying to me about it and went behind my back. It clearly would have been less painful if she were to just tell me. And two, because all I could think about was how Jake would have felt if he knew about it. I thought it was a bad thing on her part, to be leading Jake on and kinda in a way cheating on Josh at the same time? The last thing I wanted to see her to do was to do something that I would do. I knew it would only end up hurting her in the end.

So being the dumbass that I am, I felt like I needed to tell CJ.Luckily, he was able to stay after today because his sister is in Alabama. Like honestly, when did this happen? Well anyway... The look on his face when I told him the whole deal was priceless. I could tell that he was kinda upset or at least disappointed. And I didn't blame him. I was too. He was there to save my ass from ignoring a phone call. I didn't know what to say to Ashley, so I thought ignoring her would be the best way to go? Well, I'm dumb and it didn't take me until later to realize that I was wrong. We ended up talking things over, and I found out the whole thing was a lie. That made me a lot happier, and my day was no longer ruined. It only got better after that.

My walk home was amazing. I don't really know how to explain it, or even describe it. I think it's cute how's he's constantly making fun of me and then denying it. And how's he's always looking out for me. Awh, I'm so happy. (: I felt like a fricken idiot though, standing at the corner for like 10 minutes. I seriously would not let him go. I'm sucha freakkk. :P But you can't blame me for liking him. I didn't want him to leave, :( It's been wayy too long dude. He's so cute and I'm looking forward to this weekend.

I got home 10 minutes late today, and I got yelled at too. But it was definatley worth it. (: