CJ was not there today and I seriously did not know what to do. The day was like not the same. Like the times when I usually see him were so different and it was just so... weird.
The day only got stranger. The conversations with Chase and Leslie are becoming more and more awkward everyday. I seriously do not know what's going on in Chase's mind and I don't think I want to find out. I can never tell when he's telling the truth or when he's actually lying. But I do believe every word that he says.
It was good to talk to Hassan today, though. I miss him and I seriously do not know why we even stopped talking in the first place. If I had some classes with him, then I know we would still be best friends though. (:
Jessica Kassis is seriously starting to piss me off. Every single day she is like trying to stop Haley and I from being friends. It is so annoying. She consistently gives me reasons of why I shouldn't like her. And she always tells me that we have an unhealthy friendship. Like honestly, do I care? A few weeks ago I made the decision to stay friends with Haley. And if Jessica honestly thinks I'm going to stop just because she wants me to, then she's a dumbass.
It was fun to hang out with Haley and Rachel again finally. It's been too long. Our Wednesdays will not go back to how they usually are until Lauren decides to hang out with us. Today she had a reasonable explanation. I hope that she is okay.
I seriously miss Maria more than anything and I have no fricken idea why she is acting like such a bitch. I hate it more than anything when she turns her phone off without telling me. And I hate it even more when she doesn't even make an effort into talking to me. We're supposed to be best friends, but as of now, it seriously seems like I don't even know her anymore.
Luckily, like always, Ashley was there for me to talk to. I don't know what I would have done if she couldn't talk for some reason. I was seriously going crazy. Everyone and everything is just pissing me off lately and I have no idea why. It's crazy dude. I like the days where I'm always reassured that Ashley is going to be there for me. We've been through a lot and sometimes I worry. It's dumb though, because I shouldn't. I think that if I were to ever lose her again, I would practically die. But everything's going good now, so I don't see that happening anytime soon.
Seriously, I think I should just stop worrying about things. Everytime that I start to worry, something happens and completely like contradicts everything that I thought about it. It's extremely annoying, like no lie. I don't even understand. It's like I worry just to scare myself. And I hate that! Like seriously, why do I worry? There's literally no point. Everything will be okay in the end, and if it's not, then it's not the end.
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