do you remember when we had milkshakes?

Ugh. I didn't feel like doing anything today at all. I went to the store. I got new clothes. I went out to eat with the family + grams & grandpa. It was a greek or arabic food or something. It was disgusting. After that we went back to grandma's house & played poker. I won. Pretty boring day, right?

happy fuckin friday!

Oh man ! Today was definatley the best day of the whole week ! Like no lie duude. The only thing that pissed me off ALL DAY was the fact that I had to wear my glasses... Well actually, that's a lie ! But that really was seriously one of the only things that pissed me off.

I understand my history now ! And I understand math ! And spanish, but I've always understood spanish. HAHA! Amanda is a fatty. (: And omfg, here is another thing that pissed me off. The whole thing how George killed Lennie in Of Mice And Men. Like are you serious! I almost cried! I thought they were like best friends. Like noooo wayyy duuude. I can't believe he killed him. Anyway ! I did so good on my NERD CLASS test today! Woww, I really am a nerd. ): And I hate biology, but I was happy because Hinch was not there ! Whoo hooo !

Wow! So you know what else pissed me off today?! That bitch in the library. Like seriously, what the hell! She was all omg CJ come help me. Like is it seriously that hard to do something by yourself?! She was for sure flirting with him. Ahhh! That definatley ruined my day. But then I got him away from her, which is perfectoooo ! I talked to him a lot more today then I usually do. Whoo hoo ! I don't think that our mission is going to work out. I don't care what he says. I'm right about this onee !

After school was loads of fun! It was really creepy to see that kid looking at porn in the library though! Like what the hell! Lmfao. Angelica's face was pricelessss ! I'm glad we decided to go to Mcdonalds. I had fun! It's always fun to hang out with Ashley. And having Adam and Angelica be there was just an extra bit of joy ! Oh & guess what?! We're all fucking John Gardner !

one two, fuck you.

ALRIGHTTTTTTTTTT ! (:



I had a better day today. CJ was back. (: It was nice see him today. He seemed to be happy and we had some pretty funny conversations. I definately have something to make fun of him about now whenever he makes fun of me for my nerd class. lmao. Hopefully our mission works !



I don't understand history. I am going to fail my test. I did not understand the math. I am going to fail my homework. I understood spanish. Amanda and I laughed everytime someone said the word "cafeteria". I understand english. I cannot believe Lennie killed Curley's wife. I understand my nerd class. That is why I am so far ahead. I understand biology. I want to punch Mr. Hinchman in the face.

I talked to Maria today, but barely. She always says one second then never responds. That always happens.



I think that pretty much covers it all.

i'm gonna straight jab you in the face.

UGH! Everything was going crazy today. Like from the minute I woke up, I just knew everything was going to be strange. And it all started with the fact that I actually wore purple... And I hate purple.

CJ was not there today and I seriously did not know what to do. The day was like not the same. Like the times when I usually see him were so different and it was just so... weird.

The day only got stranger. The conversations with Chase and Leslie are becoming more and more awkward everyday. I seriously do not know what's going on in Chase's mind and I don't think I want to find out. I can never tell when he's telling the truth or when he's actually lying. But I do believe every word that he says.

It was good to talk to Hassan today, though. I miss him and I seriously do not know why we even stopped talking in the first place. If I had some classes with him, then I know we would still be best friends though. (:

Jessica Kassis is seriously starting to piss me off. Every single day she is like trying to stop Haley and I from being friends. It is so annoying. She consistently gives me reasons of why I shouldn't like her. And she always tells me that we have an unhealthy friendship. Like honestly, do I care? A few weeks ago I made the decision to stay friends with Haley. And if Jessica honestly thinks I'm going to stop just because she wants me to, then she's a dumbass.


It was fun to hang out with Haley and Rachel again finally. It's been too long. Our Wednesdays will not go back to how they usually are until Lauren decides to hang out with us. Today she had a reasonable explanation. I hope that she is okay.

I seriously miss Maria more than anything and I have no fricken idea why she is acting like such a bitch. I hate it more than anything when she turns her phone off without telling me. And I hate it even more when she doesn't even make an effort into talking to me. We're supposed to be best friends, but as of now, it seriously seems like I don't even know her anymore.

Luckily, like always, Ashley was there for me to talk to. I don't know what I would have done if she couldn't talk for some reason. I was seriously going crazy. Everyone and everything is just pissing me off lately and I have no idea why. It's crazy dude. I like the days where I'm always reassured that Ashley is going to be there for me. We've been through a lot and sometimes I worry. It's dumb though, because I shouldn't. I think that if I were to ever lose her again, I would practically die. But everything's going good now, so I don't see that happening anytime soon.

Seriously, I think I should just stop worrying about things. Everytime that I start to worry, something happens and completely like contradicts everything that I thought about it. It's extremely annoying, like no lie. I don't even understand. It's like I worry just to scare myself. And I hate that! Like seriously, why do I worry? There's literally no point. Everything will be okay in the end, and if it's not, then it's not the end.

best friend to biggest annoyance.

I honestly thought that today would never end. The day seemed to drag on forever and ever. But I guess that always happens when you're looking forward to something later in the day.

Someones I wonder why I show up for school. I don't learn anything in any of my classes. So it's pointless to show up, right?

I was excited because today I finally got to hang out with CJ. It was fun. There was only one thing that went wrong and guess what it was. Josh. Seriously, he came downstairs to let Betsie out and it seemed like after that he just would not leave. We entertained him for like 30 minutes and then after that he just wanted to be annoying. And omfg it was working. And apparently him and CJ are friends now? Like, seriously, when did this happen? God, he was just pissing me off! He really needs to be punched in the face or something. You have no idea how happy I was when he finally decided to leave us alone. Wow, whatever. I had a lot of fun though. (: But it would have been better if Josh wasn't there.

mi hermano es mi mejor amigo.

Today I felt strong even though I was weaker than ever on the inside. Today I felt awake even though more than anything I wanted to sleep. Today I felt like the day would never end, but now I'm sad it is. Today I felt reassured, and now I know everything is going to be okay.

you can never get too much ncis.

That's what my day consisted of today. Watching yet another NCIS marathon. It's a good show, but I would much rather like a law and order marathon. But it's whatever.

No one could hang out today, of course. But I guess it's alright because I wasn't motivated to do anything.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow, and I'm extremely tired. I'm going to bed.

father and mother i love you.

The family came over today. We celebrated Eric and mine's birthday. Aunt Teri never showed up and I was kinda disappointed about. But I'm over it now.

I was kinda upset that Ashley couldn't hang out today. But oh well, tomorrow should be fun if all goes as planned.

I was forced to play poker today and I am a fricken beast at it. I won over two dollars. I was so happy.

Not much went down today. I'm kinda bored and extremely tired. But of course I refuse to go to sleep.

i'm a dwarf.

Blahhhhh. I don't think I have ever been more tired in my entire lifetime. Well, I take that back.

I have grown to love first hour. I dislike how it goes by so fast. Leslie and Chase always put me in a good mood. Haha, even though Chase did get raped. (: But he liked it ! Ahaha.

I have absolutely no idea what was going on in my third hour today. I was distracted the whole time. And then the random phone call only made me more distracted. Haha, I have like a 20 minute voicemail on my phone from CJ now, and I can't listen to more than two minutes of it at a time. I'm dumb !

Haley was fricken pissing me off today, like more than ever. She's really starting to scare me. She fricken just whipped out a tampon and asked me if I'd go in the bathroom with her to put it in. Like seriously. What the fuck! I was freaked out and didn't want to talk to her! Then I was so proud of myself for screaming at her for the whole Jessica issue.Jessica was pretty happy about that too. (:

I was so fucking happy today because I finally got the chance to talk to James ! I miss him so so so so so so much ! Like seriously. And you know what made everything better?! I saw Roberto ! He loooked so cuute all dressed up ! (:

The fact that there is something extremely wrong with Lauren is really starting to scare me. I don't understand why this is so randomly happening to her. I am honestly scared out of my mind. I just wish everything is going to be okay.

Omfg, today was the only day this whole week that I could not write in fifth hour ! I was honestly pissed ! I think Ashley and Adam were too much of a distraction with their color guard pictures and Adam's recreation of them. Haha, they're the coolest seniors I know.

People were pissing me off more than ever today. Seriously, from today on, I will refuse to talk to homos who ruin my day.

Today I realized how good of a friend Adam is to me. And today I realized I was dumb to think I ever wanted him to get out of my life.

I found out that I was worrying for absolutely no reason at all. My current relationship is going great and I was dumb to think that would change so quickly. I'm happy, and I can tell CJ is too. From the minute that he hugged me this morning, I knew that nothing was wrong, and that nothing ever was.

someone needs to be punched.

Ugh. Today was not a very good day. I did not feel like getting up. Nothing was working out correctly as I was getting dressed, and honestly, someone needed to be punched.

As each day goes on, I am more and more excited to go to first hour. I feel myself connecting with Leslie, and I love it. The class would not be a class without her, or Chase.

I'm tired of my algebra class and even more of Mrs. Bennett. I cannot stand her and her random problems for homework and her dumb review.

Spanish today was a good hour. It was like, a relax hour. We watched The Lion King in spanish. It was really confusing and I did not understand it at all. I didn't pay attention, and I had time to catch up on my homework that I've been slacking on. I guess it was good for something.

Suddenly, I feel so left out lunch and wonder why I continue to stand in the same spot and not talk to anyone. I want my old lunch back. More than anything, I miss my freshmen.

I don't know what the thing is about 5th hour, but lately that's the only time where I get to write. That's the only hour that I actually don't have writer's block. It really pisses me off. I try to continue what I wrote in 6th hour and suddenly I can't do it. It must be something about the classroom. Or the 5 minute transition time is clearly just throwing me off.

Honestly, I don't even want to come home anymore. I will stay after school as long as I possibly can. I love my 15 minute conversations with Kelie. They relax me in someway, I just don't know why. I wish I didn't have to come home today. I can't stand to be around my family, and I don't even know why.

Josh is pissing me off. I dislike how he is trying to ruin my life. For the longest time he has been out of it and now, all of the sudden, he decides to come back in? I don't like it. I want him out and I want him to stop starting so much fricken shit. He needs to be beat up and sent away somewhere else. I seriously cannot deal with this for much longer.

I have been worrying my ass for the past 4 hours. I don't know why I'm so worried because I know that nothing is going to go wrong. Even Adam says so, and Adam knows everything. I just don't know anymore.

It's only been a few days, but I fear losing CJ. And I hope I don't anytime soon.

you seem happy. i am happy.

So I guess today was a good day, besides something completely stupid ruining it.

I woke up earlier than I was supposed to today, but in a good mood. For the first time in forever we had Pepsi in the house so I got to drink it this morning! I dislike how I can never drink the full can of the tiny cans.

Leslie and I kinda connected in a different level today. It kinda made me realize that she is going through what I went through a few months back. I tried to help her out, but I'm not sure if I told her the right advice. Her situation was a lot stickier than mine.

I was surprised to get a 38 on my composition. And I was happy. I wasn't too sure about having Amanda as a partner to begin with, but she grew on me. She's a sweet soul. (:

I wonder just how many times I have ever mentioned how much I hate english class. There is honestly no point to it. I think if Kayla or Missy weren't in that class, then I would go crazy. And I don't think I could get any crazier than I already am.

Uhm, I hate people who like to make fun of me for dating CJ. I really don't see anything wrong with him. There's no need to laugh and bring it up and laugh even more. Some people need to be punched.

I was so happy today because in 5th hour my writer's block decided to go away! I wrote a page and a half on my journey. And I'm still not done with it. I was so happy just to be writing again. I honestly forgot how good it felt to just let everything out. I think that when I'm done with this I'm going to be really happy with it's outcome. Or at least I hope so.

So the thing that ruined my day- the note from "Ashley". At first when I read it, I did not believe that she was actually with Josh. But then as I thought about it more and more, I started to kinda believe it. It didn't even piss me off that she was dating him, because I honestly have no feelings for him at all anymore. It just pissed me off for one, because she has been lying to me about it and went behind my back. It clearly would have been less painful if she were to just tell me. And two, because all I could think about was how Jake would have felt if he knew about it. I thought it was a bad thing on her part, to be leading Jake on and kinda in a way cheating on Josh at the same time? The last thing I wanted to see her to do was to do something that I would do. I knew it would only end up hurting her in the end.

So being the dumbass that I am, I felt like I needed to tell CJ.Luckily, he was able to stay after today because his sister is in Alabama. Like honestly, when did this happen? Well anyway... The look on his face when I told him the whole deal was priceless. I could tell that he was kinda upset or at least disappointed. And I didn't blame him. I was too. He was there to save my ass from ignoring a phone call. I didn't know what to say to Ashley, so I thought ignoring her would be the best way to go? Well, I'm dumb and it didn't take me until later to realize that I was wrong. We ended up talking things over, and I found out the whole thing was a lie. That made me a lot happier, and my day was no longer ruined. It only got better after that.

My walk home was amazing. I don't really know how to explain it, or even describe it. I think it's cute how's he's constantly making fun of me and then denying it. And how's he's always looking out for me. Awh, I'm so happy. (: I felt like a fricken idiot though, standing at the corner for like 10 minutes. I seriously would not let him go. I'm sucha freakkk. :P But you can't blame me for liking him. I didn't want him to leave, :( It's been wayy too long dude. He's so cute and I'm looking forward to this weekend.

I got home 10 minutes late today, and I got yelled at too. But it was definatley worth it. (:

speed, stupidity, smiles, steak fries and shinedown.

Today was a joyous day, I suppose. It was great to spend some time with Josh again. I really think that's what we needed. We were getting to the point where we were about to kill each other. But I think all is well now. Well, for the most part. He's always a good laugh. He is a sore sport though. And he made me afraid to beat him in any game that we played. His stupidity entertains me.

I am not looking forward to tomorrow. They can't give us so many days off then expect us to go back again. But they do, so we do. Hopefully it will be a good day.

what do you call that? running, i think.

Do you know what the most annoying thing in the world is? When someone's phone calls you and there's no one there. That's how I woke up this morning, and of course, I could not fall back asleep.

I was so happy today because I finally finished listening to all the songs on my ipod. It only took me what, like a week? I'm just glad to have it done and over with.

No one could hang out today. I don't understand why this always happens! Maria and I had a huge misunderstanding, well that's what I'm assuming. I didn't get to see her all break. :( Well I guess everything happens for a reason, right? But seriously, what is the reason why my mother is being such a bitch these days? Ugh, it's rather annoying.

So I pretty much spent the day with Josh. We watched the NCIS marathon. And it's still not over. We were laughing and arguing, but for the most part I think this only brought us closer together. And that's a good thing, because I honestly was afraid that I was losing him.

I'm like extremely excited to beat up Jake tomorrow. It's only gonna happen if Ashley can actually hang out. Hopefully she can! This is gonna be a blast. I just hope that the crazy lady doesn't answer the door. That wouldn't be too good. Oh well. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

I was disappointed with Fred being on ICarly today. It wasn't even funny. It was basically a waste of my time. Whatever dude. I'm going to watch The Secret Life. Peace out.

whoo hoo!

So today was the first day in literally forever that Ashley and I hung out by ourselves, without anyone else. And it was a blast dude, let me tell you! Johnny's was fun, except for the fact that the fries tasted terrible. But the ice cream was good.

I guess hanging out with CJ and Jake was a blast as well. I don't understand them that much because I never really know what they're talking about. But that's fine, I guess. They're always a good laugh. (:

Hmmm, so I'm looking forward to hanging out with Maria tomorrow. Hopefuly it happens. I honestly do not see why we wouldn't be able to, but I feel like something is going to go wrong. I just don't know what it is yet.

Today I realized how great it is to be friends with Jessica Kassis again. I never realized how good of a friend she was to me until now. And how good of a friend she has always been to me. I'm so lucky that she gave me all these chances.

Whoo hoo. It's a good thing I woke up from my nap today. It pissed me off how my phone was vibrating and not ringing like it was supposed to! But whatever. I'm glad I heard it. And I'm glad that CJ finally asked me out. (: Today was a really good day. And as of right now, I don't see things getting any worse.

it's valentine's day!

So of course original plans never stay the same. It was a mess about how the plans had to be changed and everything because we're dumb and never looked to see what Friday the 13th was rated. Whatever. And then it was complicated to find a movie that was at a beneficial time to be picked up and dropped off. Ugh, the day started off as a disaster. And for little longer, it only got worse.

It's definately not a sweet idea to turn your phone off when you know someone is trying to call you. I was honestly pissed. And my whole idea of thinking a nap would make everything better? Yeah, I was wrong. The phone call that woke me was only Josh telling me to let Betsie out. Was it really that hard for him to let her out himself? And the text that woke me was only Haley saying how Tyler didn't lie to her. Whoo hoo. Like I care.

Clearly, I woke up from my nap in a bad mood. I was extremely disappointed. I knew that CJ was a ditcher, but I didn't think he'd ditch me today. And since he was with Jake, then it wouldn't have been fair to Ashley for her to be ditched too, even though she is also a ditcher. It was hard to Ashley and I to decide if we were still going to go without them. We had a fear of being called lesbians, but an even bigger fear or them getting pissed if for some reason they did show up. I was more than happy to get a text telling me that they were going. From that moment on, I knew the day could only get better.

The movie was kinda strange, and I didn't understand it at all. I think I fell asleep because I was completely confused. But whatever. In the end, it was a pretty good Valentine's day. (:

it's friday the 13th!

Duuude, so I fricken woke up this morning at 8:30. It really sucks how I can't sleep for more than 8 hours at a time. I woke up sick, and extremely weak. I was burning up and I felt like I was gonna die. I ate so fricken much today. Like I honestly think I ate enough to hold me over for the next two days. Who knows though.

I was pretty much being lazy all day. It took me 3 hours to get ready, and 2 hours to hang up shit on my wall. And I must say, my wall looks pretty fricken sweet.

It was fun to finally hang out with Lauren, Haley and Rachel again. We had a good time at subway, but it was pretty awkward at Haley's house. She was for sure HFB. It was kinda freakin me out, but I got over it. Pinto was there too. I like her. She's fun. We were watching youtube videos for at least an hour. It was hilarious. It kinda seems like Lauren and I are getting closer. That excites me. I can't wait til next time we all hang out. I forgot how much fun we all had together.

Hmmm, well tomorrow should be fun. Or at least I hope it will be. Well, I think it's time for bed. I really need to catch up on my sleep.

i could never stay mad at you.

School was a bore today. But what day isn't it?

After school was fun, well, eventually. I was honestly extremely pissed that CJ forgot about us. But obviously I couldn't stay mad at him for long. I'm not really in the mood to go into all the details. We had some pretty cute conversations, when I was talking to him. And everything else that he did was just like extremely cute. (:

I think Jake is somewhat upset with me, because of the text messages that he read. I'm not sure if it's going to cause problems, or if he's just going to let it go. Hopefully nothing goes wrong.

Omg, I am so tired. Seriously, all I want to do right now is sleep.

i don't know what to do anymore.

I seriously thought today would never end. I've noticed this random sense of laziness in both Josh and I. I don't know about him, but I'm trying to get out of it. We've been fighting a lot lately, and I don't understand. It's somewhat depressing because of how much things have changed between us. I thought having an extra hour of the day together would bring us closer together, but it seems as if he's only getting even more tired of me. I don't know what to do about it anymore.

There is not really too much to say about school today. Nothing happened. I was so lazy and I didn't want to do anything. Haley, again, is pissing me off though.I don't know what to do about her anymore. It seems like the only person who I consistently talk to these days is Jessica. I don't understand. My views of her have changed so much in the past three years. And like, no offense to her, but I never thought out of all people, she would be the one who I came back to.

I have felt nervous or maybe even worried all day today and I haven't the slightest idea why. I get this feeling that something bad is going to happen. I just don't know what it is. I think I'm being gypped, which is seriously completely dumb because there's not even a problem coming about. You never know anymore, though. I get this awkward feeling that I'm going to be losing someone that I'm very close to. And I keep hoping it's Josh; not so much losing him, but losing close relations with him. Because I know that no matter what he's always going to be there. But that's not something that I can say for everyone else. I also feel like I'm going to be gaining a friendship with someone whom I don't even want to be friends with, and it's just going to get me hurt in the end. I just don't know anymore.

This is probably going to sound extremely strange and creepy, but I could not help to watch what the kid who sits in front of me in fifth hour was doing today. Just the whole process of how he could escape everything, and he knew what he was doing and everything. It's hard to believe he's still on project 4, being as he seems extremely smart and amazing with computers. I do believe he's just a slow worker. You know, like trying to make everything perfect. There was something about him that reminded me so much of someone else. It wasn't until I got home until I realize who, though.

Troy. I completely forgot about him. The last memory I actually have of him is him sitting next to me in Mr. O'Brien's room. It was quiet. Everyone was working, except for us of course. And then so randomly and so sweetly he just said, "We're going to be best friends forever, right?" I remember gently smiling. I looked at him and nodded my head. I couldn't help but laugh."Yes, Troy. Forever." That's what I said to him. Then the next day he wasn't at school. I thought he was sick. Then suddenly he stopped showing up. I don't know what happened to him, at all. I don't even know where he's at and it's been almost a year since I've seen him. I don't think I'll ever see him again. He taught me so much about life. He proved that anyone could live alone at age 18. He was able to support himself, and his girlfriend. He handled school, and a job, plus all the bills. He wasn't in debt at all. He was extremely smart. And he probably taught me more about computers than Mr. O'Brien did. Everyday, he was my biggest annoyance. But he always kept me going. Always. He told me not to do drugs, and he told me not to drink. He always told me that whenever I decide to have sex for the first time, that I have to use a condom. I can't believe I forgot about him. All of this talking about him makes me want to see him even more. I never realized what he actually was to me until now. I miss him, and I would do anything just to see him again.

necesito dormir.

It was a really boring day today. I didn't want to get up, or do anything. Pretty much like the last two days. I am so tired, but I can't even fall asleep before 10 anymore. Not even last night when I tried to go to bed early. Sweet, this is real cool.



Leslie was back today and I was very happy about that. We had a good time today. And I don't care what Chase says, I still don't believe he's dating Carly.



I got everything on my algebra right, thanks to Mike. And I even knew how to do it today! I was so glad that Mrs. Bennett was not there. I love Mr. Maxwell, even though Emily is right about his voice. It does kinda sound like fingernails on a chalkboard...



Amanda and I were so afraid for our dialouge today. It was definatley the hardest one yet, especially since she wasn't there yesterday. I pretty much had to teach her everything, and I did not think that she would be able to do it. But she did a really good job, and I was very proud of her. (: I'm definatley not ready for this stupid composition that we have to write. Like seriously, no notes? I will die.



Fourth hour, again, was boring. I don't even have to do anything and yet I can still pass the class. Mrs. Wells continued to go on and on about her ugly Mice of Men shirt. Like seriously, if it's ugly don't wear it.



Today I learned that Alfonso knows. That kinda upsetted me because I didn't really want him to find out. He was being an asshole about it, and pulling the whole "I don't think I'm wanted here anymore" kinda thing. And that's not even it. We don't even care if he's around or if he's gone. But his jealousy needs to be handled in a different way. I wanted to punch him in the face so badly today, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. If he doesn't fix things soon though, then he's definatley going to get it.



I was really pissed off today that Dylan left me. He's lucky I didn't straight jab, or whatever it is, him. Maybe if I knew what it meant then I would have! He did the ping pong thing today! So I forgave him and plus, he made up for it later. (:



I didn't even really get to talk to Ashley today. It really pisses me off how Jessica is always taking her away. But whatever, I'll let them be.



Thankfully Mr. O'Brien was not there today. I did not feel like doing anything, so I took longer breaks. And yet, I still managed to get everything done. This class is way too easy for me.



I absolutely cannot stand it when Mr. Hinchman does notes. I don't even listen to him because I can't stand him. The only thing I actually remember him saying is how a hummingbird was flying around his tent. And we care why? Dude, I can't stand him. And I never gave Jessica my paper to copy. I'll give it to her tomorrow.



I went to the doctor today. My finger is almost cleared up! I was so excited. I seriously thought I was going to cry when she froze it up or whatever. But I didn't, thank god. Oh, and there's nothing wrong with my toe either. Whoo Hoo!



Haley and I had a very deep conversation today. I was getting to the point where I didn't even want to talk to her anymore. Then Jessica made me realize that it's easier to just love someone or just not stand someone than to do both at the exact same time. So I made my decision, and I'm sticking with Haley.



Mike asked me out again today. I don't understand why he continues to ask, especially when he knows I'm not going to go out with him until I can see him. It really pisses me off how he kinda could careless if I were to cheat on him again. That is just strange. He's like leading himself to believe that I'm a good person. And he won't listen to me when I tell him it's not true. Whatever, I guess he just needs to get hurt again to realize it.



Anyway, I think that's all for today. I'm off to call Ashley and then eventually go to bed. Peaceee.

i've got headaches, and bad luck.

Today was the fist day in a very long time where my alarm actually woke me up. I was very surprised. I brushed my teeth with my Little Bear Toothpaste today and was very disappointed when it didn't work and I had to brush my teeth again. I hate Colgate.

I finished up my M's last night and started the N's. So far today, I've managed to make it through the N's, O's and P's. I have no Q's and I started the R's. There is a lot of those.

I did not want to go to school this morning at all. First hour is the dumbest class in the world. Colleen pissed me off so badly. But then I made her feel like an idiot for it, so I guess we're even. And Leslie wasn't even there today so I felt kinda lonely.

In second hour, I had to pick my classes for next year. I'm very proud of myself for moving up and I'm glad Mrs. Ingram talked me into Psych rather than General Psych.

I do not think I did too well on the Spanish quiz. I completely forgot about accents and then when I remembered, I had no idea where any of them went.

English is seriously the most boring class I have ever had to take. I honestly do not do anything. Lunch was enjoyable today, besides the fact Billy had to be there. I think he is the only person in the entire world that I hate.

Mr. O'Brien yelled at Lauren, Angelica and I for being late when clearly we were there on time. He got me in a bad mood for pretty much the rest of the hour. And his stupid projects didn't help much. This class flies by.

Mr. Hinchman is so boring and sometimes I want to punch him in the face. His class is so easy though, so I guess it makes up for it. Jessica was making me laugh so hard because she would not talk when no one else was. Then I left without her because her depressed friend called. (:

I stayed after school with Haley today. It was kinda awkward and I didn't really know what to say to her. I talked to Kelie for the first time a long time. That was pretty enjoyable. I didn't realize how much I missed her.

I would have been failing math if it wasn't for Mike. He taught me how to do my homework. And believe me, it took forever for me to learn. I was getting so pissed off. Luckily, he was there to calm me down as well. Finally, I figured out how to do it. It's hard to learn through text messages, trust me.

Mom was rather annoying today and I wanted her to leave me alone. Josh was actually talking, and he did not seem depressed. I was surprised. Dad, he never talks so I guess there's not much to say.

I am so tired. I'm can't believe I even went on to type this whole thing out. I don't even feel like finishing Missy's sign. I think I'm just going to take a shower and then go to bed. Goodnight.

little bear! i gots your toothpaste!

Today was really not the day I was hoping for. Seriously no one could hang out. Not Maria or Ashley or CJ or Dylan or anyone! The only people who could were the people who I didn't want to hang out with, like Alfonso. I should have just hung out with James.

I was not motivated to do anything today. It took me about 30 minutes to reorganize my elephants and then like 2 hours just to get dressed. I made up a stupid rule to myself that I had to listen to every song on my ipod without skipping a song. I started at the letter K. I think I only started at "Keep On Loving You" because I cannot get over how true it is. I went through all the K's and the L's and I'm half way through the M's. I'm really excited because I forgot how much I actually liked these songs.

I think that my whole idea of taking one last walk down memory lane last night was a bad idea, because it was on my mind all day. Everything happens to me at that stupid park. I'm seriously surprised I can go back there without crying. I'm kinda upset now. I was doing so good and not thinking about the past. It's depressing.

Anyway, I'm not really in the mood to write or talk or even do anything. Ha, things haven't changed all day.Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

it's my birthday!

So, I decided that I should do one of these for every day that I am 16. It sounds like a pretty sweet idea, but I don't know how long I'll keep it up. Haha, anyway, this is not important.

If you start the day off at 12 AM, then it was a pretty good 16th birthday. The first person out of all the people in the world to wish me a happy birthday was Jessi Bryant. I completely did not expect it from her. She honestly made my day, or my night, being as I went to bed shortly after that. Ashley called also. She was mad that she wasn't the first one, haha. That's somewhat funny. (: After I got off the phone with her, I talked to Dylan for a while. I forgot how cute he was. (:

Speaking of Dylan, I was surprised to get a text from him at 9:30 this morning. I remember over the summer when he'd sleep until 12 and pretty much make Ashley and I wake him up. Awh, I miss those days. We were supposed to hang out today, but I told him that I couldn't. It kinda sucked because I actually really wanted to. He was going to do the ping pong thing too! (:

Everyone came over around 3:30/4. Ashley made me the cutest sign/card in the world and I cannot wait to hang it on my wall. I seriously love the sign that Rachel made me. I could not stop laughing. It was an amazing feeling to have her, Haley, Lauren and I all sitting down together and looking at the whole thing filled with all of our inside jokes. It was that moment when I realized how much I actually miss hanging out with them every Wednesday.

The guy at Applebee's who sang to me made my day. I'm not exactly sure why, but he seriously excited me in ways that I didn't even know was possible. The other guy at Applebee's who pretty much stalked us, creeped me out. So did the chick in the bathroom who was laughing at how long Ashley was going to take. (: Haha, you had to be there.

It was nice to hang out with Maria again. I was completely worried she would have felt uncomfortable. It's a good thing she wasn't though. It was so much fun to dance with her to all our CIWWAF songs. I seriously did not know we had a dance to that many of them. It was fun though, and I know that that's one thing we will always share.

James is my Wheel Winner again. Like seriously, I'm tired of him! That sounds so rude, but it's true. Since Ashley and I started this stupid thing, the winners have been- James, Matt Mastrofeeni, James, CJ and James again! But whatever, he's easy. (:

I feel like Ashley and I kinda connected in some awkward way today. It reassured me that she'll always be there when I need her. And I'm really glad. (:

Anyway, I think it's time to go. Today was a good day, overall. Although I do kinda wish CJ could have been there. ):