cool for cats !

I tried to make myself look cute today for absolutely no reason at all. I didn't see anyone, and I didn't do much of anything because I'm sick! >:( I texted a lot though. Not with Adam, but with Jessica. It was enjoyable. I also got a tennis ball to my eye today, all my fault. It still kinda hurts a little. I got to spend some time with Josh today, and that was rather fun. I'm attempting to make myself look cute tomorrow, unless I'm still sick and feel like shit in the morning! Ughh ! I just want to get better, and see Adam. It's the last day of May! That means only 7 1/2 days left of school ! I can't wait until the summer. :)

"You're an acception, because you're my best friend. Not what most consider a bff to be. You're my best friend, even though I spend more time with others, and what not, you're a better friend than all of them."

love of my life. <3

I was with Adam pretty much all day today. It was cute and it was amazing. I have never been happier. I'm constantly smiling. I'm in love.

did he crush you?

To be completely honest, I do not like the person that you have turned out to be at all. You used to be so different. Granted, you always were a lying bitch, but now your actions are not understandable. You've completely turned your whole world around and from a used to be insider's point of view, you were much better the way you were before. Even though we're not so close, I still do care about you. And it would kill me inside to see anything happen to you. I feel as if this is my fault. After all, I kept you in line and I didn't let you get to crazy. I was like your straight jacket only in human form. And I don't think I ever realized it until now. You're completely crazy these days. And I can't help but to think if you and I were still best friends like we used to be, would you be doing this? Would you have changed so much or would you have stayed the same? I never thought I made such an impact on someone's life until I look at you from now an outsiders point of view. I just cannot believe how much has changed. I don't hold as much respect for you now as I did before, but I want you to know that I won't ever let anyone or anything hurt you.

I feel as if I have made a mistake. I honestly don't think I should have talked to you again. I think things are better when you're not around. It was so strange, just because it felt like it was you and me again. It seemed like no one else but you mattered to me. And I don't like that. I planned my world around you, and with you in it. And then one day, I didn't like it anymore. But now, I have planned my world around and with someone else. And as mean as it sounds, I don't want you to intrude in it. We had a chance, we've had more than one, but now things aren't going to work. I wanted you out, so I pushed you out. And you have always taught me that I can't always get what I want. And you know what? Neither can you. So no matter how hard you want back in, I hate to say it, but I won't let you in.

Today, when you and I talked for the first time in a really long time, I remembered some things. I remembered how we used to talk for hours and hours about nothing at all. You shared your personal thoughts with me, and I shared mine with you. You were there for me when I needed someone the most, just as I was to you. Honest, there was a point where I wanted you as much as you wanted me, but we both knew that it would never work out. I would get so frustrated at you to the point where I hated you. And you would probably get frustrated with me, too. But not once did we leave each other's sides. I really do not remember what happened, but I kind of wish it didn't. Now that I think about it, you were probably my best friend. I trusted you and I told you everything. But for some reason, everything changed. Talking every once in a while should be good for us, I think. But who knows if it's actually going to happen. I'd like for you to be a part of my life again, but I can already see some problems that would be caused. And I don't think either of us need that much drama in our lives. So I'm gonna let you slip away, like I have in the past. But never will I let you get too far.

DO NOT CALL HIM A HOMO!

Tyler saved my life today by letting me copy the math homework from him. Tyler made me laugh the hardest today when he yelled at me for calling Adam a homo. Believe it or not, I'm actually going to miss Tyler when he moves.

Today Adam and Tyler were making fun of me. They were talking about how hilarious it would be if I tried to rob a store. It was quite entertaining. :)

School was pretty okay today. Adam and I actually like talked at lunch. It was cute. :) And then he came over after school and that was cute too. :)

I'm in love. :)

smile miles !

Today was a super fantastic day!

Lauren was back!!! Yay!!! First hour was boring. Second hour pissed me off. Third hour was burning. Fourth hour was great! I was not too happy with the kid hitting on me though. Fifth hour was a lot of work but Adam made it better. Sixth hour was tons of fun, but when is it not? After school was a good time as well. :)

"Brianna, you are the love of my life and I could never ask for anyone better than you. I am going to love you to the day I die and nothing or no one will change that. I love you. :)"

---2 months today! :D

laying together...NAKED !

Oh Missy. (:
Let's just say, I wasn't excited to be back at school.


"You are so amazing and the way you look at me tells me that you love me and that you won't leave me. You have changed my world and I know that I will never leave you and you are the love of my life. :)"

you take away the rain, and leave me with a sunny day.

What a cute day! I went to Adam's house. We looked at his year books, and hockey books. We watched Borat too, dumbest movie ever. And then we basically just talked. We're so cute together. :)

you're gonna eat me!

Hung out with Maria today. (: It was tons of fun.

After I hung out with Adam and Tyler. And even though Tyler was there, it was cute. :)

I had a good day, and I'm glad we don't have school tomorrow.

if the sun refused to shine, i would still be loving you.

Good day. (: I was with Adam today. We tried something new and it didn't work too well. I think it was because we were worried and felt kind of uncomfortable though. It should be better next time. :D

Went out to eat with mom today at Chili's. And the Chicken Caesar Pita was the best thing everrr. (:

I cut my hair today! I'm not sure if I like it... /:

"He goes, 'Come to Kiabi and bring your cute friend. (: I'm going up there now.'

I ask, 'who?'

He says, 'From 6th hr. Idk how to spell her name.'

I say, 'Brianna. There's a few flaws with your idea though.

1. I'm not in Michigan.

2. Brianna has a boyfriend. (who she's gone pretty damn far with...)

3. She doesn't smoke.

4. I wouldn't go alone.

5. She doesn't think you're cute.'"

Lmfao, Jessica is my hero. :)

I haven't worried all day and I'm sooo glad. :D

i'm in love; i'm in deep.

Fuck school today. I mean, it was a good day and I had a good time in all my hours, basically. But today, it was all about Adam.

Firstly, it was absolutely spectacular that I got to whip him today. I haven't laughed that much in one day in a loooong time. He walked me home today, and we had an deep conversation. I'm worrying my ass off. I'm just afraid of losing him. He came over later, too. We went for a walk to the party store that I didn't know existed. Then we went to Hayes. We played hopscotch! We had conversations of the times when we got injured, and he definitely beat me. Hahaha. So then we went home and we watched tv and played Mario Kart for two minutes. Haha. Then we had the best ice cream in the world. Turns out, he had it before! Hah. But after the ice cream, is when everything went crazy. I started fricken crying. So then from there on out, we had a deep conversation. And it was probably the cutest thing ever. And then with 15 minutes left to spend together, we tried to do our thing, but we couldn't. So it turned into a conversation how we make each other laugh. And how we can joke around about his big head, and his fucked up ears, and my fucked up height and fucked up big toe, lmfao. And about the rest of our life and how we're always going to be together. We're dying right next to each other, and we're never ever going to be apart. <3

center of her own attention,

Today was a lot better than yesterday, for sure.

The history test was HARD! But I felt a lot better about it when Mrs. Hruska came into my 5th hour and said. "You did good on the test!" :) The dialouge pretty much killed my day. We had to do it TWICE because there were too many interruptions and Mrs. Massucci couldn't concentrate. It was hell, but we did it well, I think.

The baseball game should be fun! It's the last one! Whooo!

better start believin.

Today was officially the worst day of the school year.

Adam and I were fighting for dumb reasons. If I didn't have my period, and if he wasn't pmsing, then there would have been no problem, I'm convinced. He totally twisted my words around, which pissed me off even more. And then Mrs. Bennett only made it worse because she would not fucking help me! I fucking hate her. I am so glad I don't have her anymore after the 9th. And in the hall, Adam hugged me. And whenever someone hugs me, I cry. So I cried. And then Adam texted me and sent me a cute text that made me cry even more. But Jessi made me feel better so it's all good. And Courtney is always there to give me a good laugh too. Missy was back today and that was probably the best thing that could ever happen. Lunch was boring because Adam and I both didn't feel good. And then I completely flipped out on him for no reason. Only because he didn't tell me he had a game today. And then he hugged me again, and so of course I cried again. And then Missy made me feel better because we colored in english again. I kinda cheered up a little in fifth hour because our sub, Ms. Tzau, was asking seniors to give her a ride home. Hah. Lauren was kind of frustrating me, but it was okay. I got better in sixth hour simply because Mr. Hinchman is so dumb, that he can cheer you up if you just look at him. Haha. So then Adam and I worked things out and I'm going to his game later, and he's not mad at me, never was. He completely understands that it's only because of my period. And that's a good thing because it means he won't be mad at me pretty much ever because I usually only get extremely pissed off when I'm on my period. But I'm better now. And so is he. Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today. I really really don't want to be this big of a bitch today. But then I just remembered I have a history test tomorrow, so first hour is gonna suck. Ugh. FML. Oh well, things will get better.

We fight because we love each other.

"God. I am so sorry. I had no reason to say what I did and I need to be better to you than what I am. I am sorry for today and I can only hope that today gets better. I love you, Brianna. With all my heart."

i wanna be everything.

OH MY FUCKING GOD ! :D

I love you, Adam. :)

go fall in a hole!

Oh Missy... :)

Hah. I guess I had an okay day. I really don't know. I was energetic in my last three hours. I was pissed off in third hour and of course took it out on Adam. First and second hour were pretty much the same shit they usually are.

I'm excited for November, hahhh. Adam said once he gets his license he's gonna take me out more. :) What a cutie. :D

i promise i will never leave you.

*Adam, you promised.



Today is Josh's birthday! I bought him a Monster since I didn't hang out with him all day.



I went to Adam's today. It was amazing. Probably the best time. I'm in love.


"Because you are amazing and everything I could ever ask for and I love you."










R.I.P. Grandpa. You've been gone for 8 years now. I feel terrible because it doesn't even affect me anymore. Josh's birthday used to be so depressing, but now it just seems like a birthday. I never think of you, and I never cry over you. Maybe it's because I didn't know you too well. But you'd think I'd cry for dad's sake. But I don't. I really do miss you. I am kinda used to just Grandma coming to visit now though. I feel bad for not crying. But all pain heals with time.

i found myself still thinking of you.

Today I've been 16 for 100 days. So I have 265 days left to go. Aha.

Josh's birthday with the family today. It was pretty boring. But I guess it was good to see them all again.

Adam came over today. Omfg, it was the most amazing time. I did not want him to leave at all. Hopefully I'll see him tomorrow. :)

"Brianna, I have always been deeply in love with you."

you don't have to say anything at all.

Great dayy. (: We finished Forrest Gump today, and I loved it! Colleen and I actually got along which was a surprise! But I'm glad we did. :) Mrs. Bennett didn't take forever on the notes and homework today! And I'm happy! Spanish was easy, and I got 22/20 on the vocab test! (: English was movie and seeing Adam and help with math and talking to Missy. English wasn't annoying today! Lunch was wonderful with Courtney. (: She's pretty sweet. 5th hour was good. Sr. O'brien no está hoy! Estoy muy bien! But our sub sucked. Aha. Biology was simple and pointless. And I cannot wait for Applebee's later! :) Applebee's was fun! And so was Culver's. I wish they sang to Josh. And I wish he didn't get sick. :(

"I love you more than anything in the world. And that won't change cause I am going to love you forever. No matter what!"
-7 weeks today. (:

have you ever needed someone so bad?

The lives of others have more of an affect on me today than my own life does. And I honestly have no idea what to do.

I have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I get older, being as psychology isn't even what I want to do, or am even good at anymore. And it's extremely hard to get into journalism, not that I understand why. Dad suggests something with computers, but I really don't think I want to be a Mr. O'brien junior. Life is gonna suck when I grow old.

"The best month and a half I have ever had with a girl. It will be a life long relationship because you are the one. I can tell by the way I feel about you and care about you."

--cuteness. :)

i'd die of laughter watching her eat a peanut butter sandwich.

GREAT DAY ! WHOO !

NO HOMEWORK IN MRS. BENNETTS TODAY ! WHOO !

NO HOMEWORK AT ALL TODAY ! WHOOO !

REUNION WITH LAUREN, RACHEL AND HALEY TODAY ! WHOO !

I'VE MISSED THEM ! :)

AND ADAM IS ALSO OKAY ! WHOOO !

AND HE'S COMING OVER TOMORROW PROBABLY ! WHOOO !

I'M SO FRICKEN HYPER ! WHOOO !

WHOOO !

"You're mine forever and I love you more than anything. :)"

you keep saying it's you, and i'm praying it's true.

Shitty day at school. I hate Mrs. Bennett. I hate Mrs. Wells. I hate it when Jessica Kassis flirts with MY boyfriend.

After school, I did all the homework that's due from tomorrow until May, 21st. And I'm proud of myself.

After dinner, I hung out with Adam. And even though it was at a park, it was fucking amazing. :)

UUUH!

Lmfao, Jessi seriously made my day.

Today I learned that Lamb is my main competitor, and he's the only one who can beat me.

Good day. (: It was nice to see Adam again.

you're as pretty as a rose,

It's Mother's Day. (:

Good day. :D The only thing that would have made it better would have been to see Adam. But it's all good. :)

My boyfriend says the cutest things to me;

"We are definitely not crazy cause I know that you are the love of my life. :)"

"You mean the world to me, Brianna. And I love you :)"

"You are my first real love, Brianna."

if the world is ending, i'm throwing the party.

Today was one of the most amazing days of my entire life. I couldn't be any happier with my life right now, and I do not want it to change one bit. I have a good family, I have the best of friends, I'm happy, I'm in love. Life is simply amazing. (:

tu eres el homo.

"I am NOT a homo!"

Pahaha, (:

Really good day. :D

Glad it's the weekend !

i got two tickets to paradise,

Uhh. I didn't feel too good today. So basically it wasn't the best day. But it got better.

these ice cubes taste like cucumbers.

Hahaa ! Good day.

Mike said the cutest thing ever to me today;

"If she says yes, then she would be the second best girl I have ever dated."

...He's only dated me.

Adam and I are a lot better now. And I'm really really glad. I know for a fact now that I am not going to lose him.

I feel so so so so so SO bad that my class made Mrs. Bennett cry! Like, I don't even know how we did it! And I really hope I didn't do anything. Awh, poor Mrs. Bennett. :(

I want to punch Mr. O'Brien in the face for giving me a poor grade when clearly I have everything that I need.

Today was the first day since March 25th, that Lauren, Rachel, Haley and I all hung out. And it was a blast. :D

The soccer game was fun today. And it was pretty sweet to hang out with Ryan and Chase for a little. They're pretty cool. :)

I totally surprised Adam today by showing up at his game when I told him I wasn't going. He was happy that I did too. :)

"Cause I try baby, all the time. But I can't help to be jealous even though you're mine. You opened your heart to her and it's been so long. I feel like I have to try extra hard to get in and I always feel like I can't. And I beat myself up for it and I don't know why. I just feel like there's always gonna be something with you and her that I can't get in the way of and it hurts me somehow."
"Wow that was deep but... I don't know if you remember me telling you that I loved you before I dated Jessica and you were my first love. There is no need to compete with her because you are ten times better than she was and I would never take back anything. You are who I want to be with. That will never change and I will always love you no matter what."





Good day. :D

obviously, tu eres vova.

UGHHHH !

Adam and I fought like crazy today and at one point I actually cried. Like, for real cried. Not so much because of him, but because of the thought of losing him. We worked everything out though, and it's okay now. Thank God because I have no idea what I would do without him.

Today, I realized how good of a friend Haley is to me. Honestly, I never ever noticed it. But then I cried. And then she was there. She listened. And she even teared up a bit. And then... The hug. It was the best hug that her and I have ever shared. And now I am positive that I want to keep in her in my life, no matter how annoying I get of her. She is definately one of my best friends. And I don't wanna lose her.

"Anything for you, Brianna... The love of my life."

-- <3

george hw! i dont like that!

Oh Lauren... :D

Haha, Pretty good day actually. :D

I'm looking forward to the end of the school year.

fat chicks to the right.

Lmfao.

Adam and I went on our first date today. :D We went to the Tiger's game and it was really fun. Rachel was at the game too! So I talked to her for awhile, which was good. I miss her. After the game I went back to Adam's house and it was a blast. :D

I feel 100% comfortable in front of Adam now. And that's a good thing. I always have a great time with him, and I feel like he's one of the few people I can actually be myself around these days. He made me cry today. But it was all good tears. I honestly don't know what I'd do without him.

"By the way, I was thinking about how I am so happy you waited for me and how you are one of the best things to ever happen to me."

"I'm the happiest I've ever been since I've been with you."

--I'm in love.

maybe i wanted that cracker.

Amazing dayy. :D

Wish it never ended !

wouldn't it be sad if a book was dedicated to someone and they didn't read it?

Oh Lauren... :)

Pretty good day. (:

Excited for weekend. :D