fuck change.

No one could hang out today. I hate it when that happens. At least Josh is always there to hang out with. We had a good time. He's so dumb.

So, there was an end to CJ and I today. Kinda depressing. But whatever. He was being a jerk about this whole thing. He has been ever since we started dating. I don't understand what the problem is, but whatever. I don't care. Well, obviously I care. it's upsetting. It really is. Like, he was actually someone who meant a lot to me. I CHANGED FOR HIM. Someone like me doens't just change for anyone. Obviously, he had to have meant something to me. I just don't understand. I didn't do anything wrong. It was all him. I'm upset, but I'm not gonna let it get to me. He's not worth my time.

But if anything, today I realized who will actually be there for me and who actually cares. I can't believe that I was about to give almost everything up and let everyone go. Everything happens for a reason. I'll be fine. I know who I need now, and I'm happy with them. I'm not gonna let some stupid fatass like CJ ruin my life. I'm done. I honestly just don't care anymore.